Can’t Answer Why

Sometimes I cross a line I didn’t know was there Sometimes I sabotage myself Oftentimes I drink to much I dance back and forth across the line Of heavy drinking and alcoholic Sometimes I’m full of optimism but most often not If you asked me why As I often ask myself I wouldn’t be able […]

Learning to Love yourself

Learning to love yourself It sounds so simple when said out loud It’s only 4 words after all Only 22 letters Only 6 syllables Yet it’s still a thing that has haunted mankind For generations If not all of time When your mind screams you’re not worthy When people say hurtful things When the intrusive […]

Love Won and Lost V3

I have loved with a love so passionate that it changed my life A love I never knew this once empty shell of a man was capable of A loner I’ve always been Always afraid to let others in Never trusting but those special few I lived so long under the weight of my demons […]

Terrified

I’m driving home From a great weekend Seeing and spending time with people I love and miss That I never get to see While I was there just like always I’m different I’m a happier better version of myself It caused me to acknowledge A problem I’ve chosen to ignore A problem I don’t want […]

Patterns

Habits and patterns A prisoner in a prison I designed Built on 2 cornerstones Don’t trust others And my twin fears of betrayal and rejection These 2 stones formulate the foundation Of my entire being They are the basics of all I do and believe They are my version of rose colored glasses They are […]

Asking For Help

Asking For Help Asking for help Something so simple But so hard I’ve never liked the phrase a cry for help It makes it sound like you need pity But when you’re struggling with things mentally Whether its depression Bipolar PTSD Anxiety or anything else The last thing I feel for anyone is pity You […]

Different Battles

We all fight different battles We all fight the same war Making it through life with our hearts and minds intact Some battle depression Some battle anxiety Some battle bipolar disorder Some battle PTSD I battle depression and loneliness It is a fight that I have fought More times than I care to ever remember […]

Touch Starved

The feature image of a sphinx cat will make sense i promise enjoy the poem starts below on page 2. I didn’t want there to be a page 2 but the formatting works better that way. so it shall remain until i find a better way.

Past Self

Past Self If you could say something to yourself from 10 years ago What would it be If there was a limit on the words you could say How many would you use What message would you convey I know what mine would be If I only had 3 words I would say It Gets […]

Hate

Hate The world is filled with Hate But Hate isn’t s a natural state Hate is something that takes effort Just like Love To Hate something requires thought and focus So does loving something You can dislike something intensely with little effort You can be disgusted with no effort But to truly Hate requires more […]