Can’t Answer Why

Sometimes I cross a line I didn’t know was there Sometimes I sabotage myself Oftentimes I drink to much I dance back and forth across the line Of heavy drinking and alcoholic Sometimes I’m full of optimism but most often not If you asked me why As I often ask myself I wouldn’t be able […]

Learning to Love yourself

Learning to love yourself It sounds so simple when said out loud It’s only 4 words after all Only 22 letters Only 6 syllables Yet it’s still a thing that has haunted mankind For generations If not all of time When your mind screams you’re not worthy When people say hurtful things When the intrusive […]

Blue Blood

Blue Blood The thin yellow line The thin blue line The thin silver line All blue bloods through and through A family of blood sweat and tears And on those rare occasions joy Not by birth Not by vocation But by calling By the blood we bleed When we lose one of our own You’re […]

Love Won and Lost V3

I have loved with a love so passionate that it changed my life A love I never knew this once empty shell of a man was capable of A loner I’ve always been Always afraid to let others in Never trusting but those special few I lived so long under the weight of my demons […]

Terrified

I’m driving home From a great weekend Seeing and spending time with people I love and miss That I never get to see While I was there just like always I’m different I’m a happier better version of myself It caused me to acknowledge A problem I’ve chosen to ignore A problem I don’t want […]

Patterns

Habits and patterns A prisoner in a prison I designed Built on 2 cornerstones Don’t trust others And my twin fears of betrayal and rejection These 2 stones formulate the foundation Of my entire being They are the basics of all I do and believe They are my version of rose colored glasses They are […]

Mentoring

So this is gonna be different from what I usually post but here it is. I put in for Sergeant at my work and as part of the process I was told to write an essay about being a mentor. Full names have been redacted for the privacy of the individuals. To mentor someone does […]

Asking For Help

Asking For Help Asking for help Something so simple But so hard I’ve never liked the phrase a cry for help It makes it sound like you need pity But when you’re struggling with things mentally Whether its depression Bipolar PTSD Anxiety or anything else The last thing I feel for anyone is pity You […]

Different Battles

We all fight different battles We all fight the same war Making it through life with our hearts and minds intact Some battle depression Some battle anxiety Some battle bipolar disorder Some battle PTSD I battle depression and loneliness It is a fight that I have fought More times than I care to ever remember […]

Touch Starved

The feature image of a sphinx cat will make sense i promise enjoy the poem starts below on page 2. I didn’t want there to be a page 2 but the formatting works better that way. so it shall remain until i find a better way.