Even Rocks Break and Mountains Fall

This is effectively a sequel to this post

Mountain Of A Man

Even the strongest rocks break

All mountains will eventually fall

Even Vesuvius and Mount ST Helens did fall

All things must come to an end

Sure, they erupted in a blaze of glory

Not a slow eroding

But all things must end

Even mountains of men

As cancer and chemo ravages

My dad’s body

I’m watching a mountain of a man

Slowly decline

From a vibrant example of life

Full of zest

Full of love and support

To someone I had to help stand up today

To someone I had to help change his diaper

A week ago, I didn’t have to do either of those things

Even before that though I let the tears fall on my drive home

I let myself break for the first time in months

First it was moving

Then it was moving and kidney stones

And now this

A visit to the hospital

Days filled with pain for my Father

The man I most admire

When they finally put in a filter for his blood clots

Which should have been done 2 months ago but wasn’t

Now he comes home and he just seems less

My heart breaks inside my chest

And this rock

This rock that I am for all

It broke inside

Last night when he came home

He looked so much like my grandfather riddled with age

And tired

So tired

Must all rocks break

Must all mountains fall

I want to scream and rage against the sky

For all the good it would do

I want to fall on my knees and beg for a miracle

But I don’t see one coming

I suppose you never do

I just wish this mountain wouldn’t fall

Wouldn’t erode away

It breaks me inside

To watch his decline

But all things must end

Even though we wish they wouldn’t

I just wish

It was another 20 years down the road

Not now

Not this way

Not this way

Fuck Cancer

If it wasn’t for that we wouldn’t be here

I wouldn’t be writing this

I or you wouldn’t be reading this

And you wouldn’t be hearing it

Or reading it

I just wish mountains didn’t have to fall.