A Life Lived Out Of Spite

I saw a prompt today “If there were a biography about you, what would the title be?”

Mine would be A Life Lived Out Of Spite

So many people have called me worthless, and stupid over the years

Including the voices in my head that I know to be my depression, anxiety, and suicidal ideation

Through living life out of spite I have outlived some of my naysayers

I have lived a life some would be jealous of and many wouldn’t

I have reached higher than I ever thought that I could

I have been lower than I have ever feared I would be

But spite that infernal emotion has enabled me to live far longer than i ever thought I would

Spite is one of my oldest friends making me want to do whatever anyone says I can’t

Spite made me spit in the face of my depression when I awoke from my suicide attempt

I got up and went to work like nothing had happened like I didn’t swallow a bottle of pills 2 days ago

People called me weak, and spite inspired me to be strong

Stronger than most, how many people have you heard of attempting suicide sleeping off the pills they took for 2 days

And just getting up going on about their life out of spite and not knowing what else to do

Death didn’t want me so spite welcomed me with open arms and fueled me with it’s fire.

Spite has been a lifelong friend

And a lifelong enemy you cant build a relationship out of spite

You cant build love on a foundation of spite

So though its been a great help to me

I’ve had to learn to let it go and leave it behind

But still I can say had a life lived out of spite

I wouldn’t necessarily recommend it but if it’s what you haver to do to live then do it

A life lived out of spit is better than no life at all.

Daily writing prompt

If there were a biography about you, what would the title be?

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