I Wish You Could Have Stayed 

I wish you could have stayed 

I wish you hadn’t had to go 

I wish the cancer hadn’t hit so hard so fast 

I wish I could have had just one more good year 

Just one more day of you being awake and lucid 

I wish we had talked more than we did 

I wish I had asked more questions 

I wish I had let you show me how to make potato Salad 

It’s coming up on a year since you left this world 

And the wound’s still raw and open 

I don’t know what the actual anniversary will bring 

But your Birthday passed by with barely a whisper 

Maybe I was just too busy and tired that day to feel it 

So why do I feel like I betrayed you by not being affected by it 

I wish I had been there that night as the life left your body 

Haunted by memories 

Haunted by regrets of things we never did together 

Of things I never learned 

I was always too busy or too tired 

God I wish I could have had just 1 more day 

Where I got to listen to your voice 

Now I’m left with your voicemail  

And rambling memories 

Keeping the family together taking care of Mom and the Boys 

Wishes are worthless though 

Worth less than the money this is printed on 

They accomplish nothing and breed regret 

Tell me dad how do I go on with this gaping hole 

With this aching wound 

How, how, how do I do this without you 

You were always the rock 

I wish I had 1 more day 

I will have an eternity 

I wish you could have stayed 

One day we’ll never be without each other again 

I wish cancer wasn’t a thing 

I look forward to the day when it isn’t 

I look forward to no more weeping, no more sadness, and no more pain 

In the meantime 

I’ll try to be what you were for me 

For John and Jinson 

I’ll learn the lessons I never did and pass them down.   

I love you and miss you still dad.   

And always will.   

In Loving Memory of Jimmy Francis Faithful Husband, Loving Father, amazing friend.