I’m An Old Man Now

I’m an old man now

Not necessarily by age

For I’m only 35

But I’m older than I ever thought I’d be

Older than I have any right to be

12 years older than the night I almost went into the light

I’ve never understood people my age

And forget the people younger than me

I just call them all kids

Gen Z, and Gen Alpha

Boggle my mind

It’s all snapchat

And God only knows what else

I’m bound for Glory eventually

Everything since 2013 has been a blessing I didn’t and don’t deserve

It’s all been a gift

That I can never hope to repay

So I continue on as an old man taking the scenic route through life

Enjoying every sunset and every sunrise

Each one a blessing

Till the day I wade through the muddy water of trenches of my own mind one last time

Till the day I finally kick it and say goodbye to this cruel but beautiful world

When I reach the other side

I’ll be young again but probably the same age I am now

Where I’ll get to exist in a world without cruelty