Let You Down 

How come I always seem to let you down 

I always seem to fail 

Just when I’m on the cusp of greatness 

I trip myself up 

I never seem to be able to achieve what I want  

I always seem to let you down 

Tell me how do I get things right 

When all I seem to do is get it wrong 

How do I climb that mountain  

When I seem to have forgotten my ropes, harness 

And climbing axe 

How do I get back into your good graces 

How do I find my way back to you 

Time and time again I fail you 

Time and time again I fuck it all up  

Yet every time you welcome me back with open arms  

Only to leave me wondering when you’ll stop 

You say you remove my sins from me 

As far as the east is from the west 

But I have a hard time believing it 

It’s so much easier to frame you in my own limited understanding 

And expect you to get tired of me 

And leave like a person would 

To say that’s the last time 

And wash your hands of me 

Saying not my problem not my responsibility  

Like Pontius Pilate did with you 

But you never do 

Life would be so much easier if I did not have to strive to be better 

And could just wallow in my worst base instincts 

But that’s not what I’m called to and 

Not what you died for 

So even though I know I’ll continue to let you down  

I’ll keep trying and strive to be better 

Because i want to be better 

Not just for me 

Or for you 

But because I want to show how life can be better for others 

I want to be your light shining in the darkness 

So, I’ll keep on climbing 

With bleeding fingers 

Knowing I’ve got the best safety harness and rope in the world 

I’ve got you Jesus 

Psalms 103:12

originally inspired by Let You Down by NF