Shut Up

The voice in the head is my own worst critic

All the time yelling, and whispering

That I’m a piece of shit

And a waste of space

Daily hourly I have to remind it of its place

And tell it to shut up

Sometimes it listens but often times it doesn’t

So, I have to remember the words of kindness

And love that I hear

From those I care about

Those words are my lifeblood my energy

My fuel when all else fails

How does the voice inside your head sound

Does it shout and scream

Does it berate

What do you do to drown it out

To reinforce yourself against it

When it screams, you’re a waste of space

How do you move on from that

How do you move on when your own mind

Won’t let you

When it yells fuck your therapy

You’ll never be okay

What do you do to tell it to shut up

Do you cover your inner ears and scream back

Do you pray

Do you take your medications

I do both

And remember all the good things

I’ve achieved

All the good I’ve done

The hope I bring

The knowledge that you’re not alone in this fight

I remember all the kind and good things people

Have said to me and about me

I take them to heart

And I use them to wall off that voice

I’m standing up to it

Comin out of that ring

Victorious