Trust

Trust is a hard thing for me

I’ve been lied to

I’ve been betrayed by those

I considered friends

So I find it hard to trust

Hard to build relationships

Hard to allow myself to trust

People I don’t know

But how do you build relationships

Without trust

Such is the dichotomy

Of my soul

I long for relationship

I long to trust people

But find it so hard to do so

So I’m stuck in between a rock

And a hard place

But it’s something I’m striving towards

To be more trusting

With a heavy dose of reality

I’m open about everything but

I find it hard to place that same trust

In others

That they’re being open

And honest

That their words and commitments

Are worth anything to me

I’m doing my best to unravel the dichotomy

But it never quite seems like enough

Maybe one day

I’ll be free from it but for now

I just continue on.