I Thought Healing Would Feel Like Peace 

I thought healing would feel like peace instead 

It feels like learning to live with an empty hole 

Where you used to be 

I thought healing would come peace  

Instead, it comes with emptiness and learning to live without you 

I knew that healing from your loss would look vastly different 

From any loss I had suffered before, but I wasn’t prepared for just how different it would be 

Since cancer claimed you, I won’t lie I’ve been a little lost 

I can’t say how many times I’ve turned a corner and expected still to see you there 

How many times I’ve just wanted to show you another poem and I can’t 

Still, I’m happy for you 

Because I know you’re no longer in pain and you’re up in heaven 

Spending time with God having the time of your life 

I thought healing would bring peace instead it’s left me with an unsettled feeling and a gap where you once were 

Instead, it feels like heartbreak over, and over again lessening but continuing to come in waves.