Emotional Blister: Dealing With Grief 

I’ve got an emotional blister red and inflamed 

Ready to burst at any moment  

Painful as hell the blister is my attempt to contain my grief 

To compartmentalize it  

So, I’m not constantly awash in waves of grief 

So, I’m not so overwhelmed I can’t function 

I’m full of regret and wishes concerning my father  

Regret that I didn’t spend more time with him 

Didn’t talk with him more 

Didn’t learn more from him 

Don’t get me wrong we had a great relationship  

But I wish I had spent more time 

Had talked more 

Had learned more 

So, I’ll continue on with this blister as I slowly heal and come to terms  

With my regrets and wishes 

And the loss  

Taking a needle and running it under the blister to let the grief out a little at a time 

In the meantime 

Just know that I’m no okay 

But that’s okay 

It takes time and I’m coming up on a year without him 

And lest we forget the holidays will soon be upon us 

So, pardon me if I try to protect this blister lest it pop 

There’s only so much I can take on at a time 

So, I’ll poke a needle through the skin and rain it a bit at a time 

When I can  

Cause I just can’t do it all at once 

It’s too much 

So, pardon me if I withdraw when it pops and I get overwhelmed 

I’m just doing my darndest to stay above the water line 

When these waves of grief wash over me.