World War Me

For almost as long as I can remember I have warred against myself

And I have lost more battles than I care to remember to myself

I have almost succeeded in taking my own life

That was me nearly losing the war

Against myself

But I won in the end

And now I press on

My defining trait is that I never quite give up

I always get back up

No matter how many times I get knocked down

I always rise

I never surrender

Not anymore

I am not an unstoppable force

I can be stopped temporarily

But never fully

I’ll get back up when I hit that wall and find another way through

Another avenue of progress

Even If it means bashing my head against the wall until it breaks

The only thing is in this never-ending war against myself and the world

In my never-ending world war inside my own head

I don’t know if I will ever truly find peace in this life

Because I never give up

I never surrender

One day maybe I will defeat my enemy

Which is myself

But I don’t know when that day will come so until then

I will sing my litany of pain and continue on

This poem was inspired by World War Me by Theory Of A Deadman and Get Down by Audio Adrenaline.