Poetic Resilience

It feels like I’m 2 steps behind 

Like I’m so far off track  

That I can’t get back 

I feel like I’m so far behind everyone else my age 

Even with all I’ve achieved 

How many people can say that they’ve written over 100 poems  

Compiled them into a book and self-published 

How many people can say that they’ve fought depression and won 

Lived through a suicide attempt 

Loved and lost and still 

Came out the other side stronger 

Yet at the same time 

I still live with family 

I have no significant other  

Hell I’m not even dating right now 

Even though I’m 34 years old 

I’m in debt 

Mostly just car debt since i was forced to buy a new car 

But i still fell so far behind 

Like I’m lagging in an online game 

Everyone else is moving while I stand still 

Yet here I am 

And here I’ll stand 

I’ll always continue 

Struggling and fighting  

Till I find my full place in this world 

Because i was born with a warrior’s heart and 

Its not in me to give up anymore 

Than i already have 

I’m a survivor and I’ll do whatever it takes to survive 

I’ll slay my dragons and help others slay theirs  

Such is my purpose in this life 

And such is my joy