New Year New Me Maybe?

New year new me?

Maybe, it depends whether I can shed the darkness within

And shed the grief

Wait that’s not quite right

Grief never truly leaves it just lessens

I’ve said before, “New year, new me nah same old asshole”

But the asshole is starting to disappear

3 years now since I left the sheriff’s office

And I’m becoming the person I was meant to be

Before I joined up there

I’m more understanding and loving

I’m more open and friendly

Still shy and awkward

But who’s not these days

So I’ll go into this new year hoping

I’ll figure it out a little more again this new year

I hate new years resolutions so I’m not making any

But if I did it’d be simple and open ended

Be better than I was last year

And really that’s what every single one boils down too

I just don’t burden myself with a specific way of doing it

It’s open ended for a reason

You never know what the next year will bring

And all I can hope for is to be better than last year

So join me in the only resolution that matters

Not a new you but an improved you

You’ll never achieve making yourself anew

But you can always improve

So this new year let’s improve ourselves in a thousand small ways

In any way we can