Scablous

Definition  Scablous adj. proud of a certain scar on your body, which is like an autograph signed to you by a world grateful for your continued willingness to play with her, even if it hurts. From scab + fabulous.  From the dictionary of Obscure Sorrows

I used to have scars from self harm but they’ve all disappeared

I don’t really have any visible scars I’m proud of

I’ve got a myriad of invisible ones though

My first breakup

The end of my longest relationship

The scars left from almost 11 years working in a jail

The scars I’m most proud of are all invisible they show my resilience

My proudest scars are recurring they’re the remnants

Of my attempted suicide where I overdosed

Though I hate the bastards

My kidney stones are my favorite scars

My proof that I can survive against all odds

That I have a purpose

They serve to remind me to live and live well

Even when they cause me to howl in pain

They remind me I’m alive

They remind me I’m a survivor and a warrior

God bless my scars