Eigenschauung 

Definition  Eigenschauung: n. the degree to which your view of the world is warped by your own presence in it, whether you’re a stunning beauty who assume all strangers are chatty, a bully who thinks the world is perpetually at war, or a quivering leaf who walks around in an artificial cloud of deference; the awareness that although you’d like to think you perceive things clearly and objectively, you’ve never felt the vibe of a room that doesn’t happen to have you in it.  From the Dictionary of Obscure Sorrows 

You think your view of the world is unbiased 

But it’s tainted by you 

You’ve never seen the vibe of a space without you 

Everywhere you go is changed by your presence 

For better or worse 

You color the world around you 

To borrow from the definition you warp everything you touch 

In subtle ways 

You leave your fingerprint everywhere you go  

By the very nature of your existence you will never know what the world 

Would be like without you 

It has been forever changed and will be always changed just by the nature of your own existence 

You will never truly be able to see the full effect of your own presence  

Even the most astute and observant among us will never be able to see without the aid of cameras and forethought 

With complete surprise on those your springing your presence on the full effect that your own presence has 

If that’s not an obscure sorrow I don’t know what would classify as one.  

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