Another one that was lost from 2008
Apathy a Sea of Nothing
Apathy the bane of my existence
The absence of all that makes me human
Without hope without emotion
I wonder is it a phase or is it forever
I have felt it coming for a long time now
But how to stop it every day it marches on
And I am left wondering why
Left wondering if
Without emotion
Am I anything more than an animal
Am I even human any longer
If i am not has something left me
Am I without a soul
Devoid of all emotion
Floating in a sea of nothing
I wonder why am I here
In this place
Am I doomed to float in a sea of nothing for all eternity
Or will I feel again in this empty sea
And if so what will bring it on
What will save me from this place
Or will it be someone
I wonder if I can find someone
Or something to save me from this place
Will I ever find someone to make me complete
Or will I float on this sea all alone
Because every once in a while someone will come along
And ill think to myself maybe they are the one
But then they will run away
And leave me all alone again
I wonder will I find a way out
Sometimes I do not think I ever will
But maybe one day I will
But I know it will not be on my own
Oh no only with help with I make it out
Will I make it through this day
And through this life
With help not just from above
But help from this mortal coil
From someone
Whom I know not at least not yet
The one who will complete me
I wish I could find her
I do not think I will most of the time
But in this place I find solace and occasionally
Hope but tis rare
So I doubt that I will
Cause for it to happen you have to believe it
And I do not believe it anymore
I do not buy into the lie
That we will all find our soul mates
Some are just doomed to wander alone
I wander am I one of them
July 2008